Monday, August 30, 2010

Just keep swimming....

In the famous words of Dory the sweet blue fish in Finding Nemo, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming swimming, what do we do? We swim swim swim!

I've been on quite a roller coaster lately. But the one thing I have had complete control over is my weight loss. I have gone extreme and cut out sugar and carbs... Given up caffeine which means no coffee or Diet Coke either....and started doing yoga on a regular basis. I feel great about myself! Not only have I been rewarded with healthy self esteem but my clothes are getting too big!

I'm tracking to my goal people and I feel fan fucking tastic!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Weight Update

OMG!!!! Do you see that ticker thingy over there ===>>?

That is right people, I am down 14 pounds!!!!!!! I am so excited I cannot see straight!

So, my goal of losing 40 before I am 40 became a bit unrealistic after a doctors visit last week. Apparently my body shape, size, etc should really not be less than 140, which is okizzay with me! What that means is, I am 23 pounds away from my goal...and my shoes! And I still have 165 days to go....I CAN DO THIS. I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!!!!!! I am so proud of myself right now.

Being on a diet sucks. I'm just being honest. I mean who enjoys weighing their food, counting points, watching everything you put into their body? NOT ME! Which is how I ended up with all of this extra weight. Since starting this jouney back in January I have been off and on the wagon. Lost and gained...lost and gained again...but now, this...14 pounds it motivating... it is close to my all time weight loss of 15 pounds several years ago. But I am taking it day by day...day by day...that saying is starting to have a lot of meaning to me.

Go me!

Friday, August 6, 2010

TGIF!

Damn! This has been one LONG week. Let's recap:

I traveled Sun-Tues
Attended marriage counseling
Celebrated baby girls 3rd birthday
Changed my mindset on so many things
Cleaned my house from top to bottom
Helped two friends with life problems, even if it was only just by listening
Spent tonight with my wonderful sisters preparing for a 3 year old birthday party
Decorated a Princess Arial birthday cake...the ones with all the stars piped out of frosting...my hand is cramped but it looks awesome!

All in all it was a busy and stressful week and I am so glad it is the weekend!

I am looking forward to a new week next week!

Peace out!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Happy Birthday Baby Girl

Three years ago today we were blessed with our baby girl. After a couple failed and painful attempts at having a second child we gave it one more try. Could be the fertility statue I rubbed in a castle in Ireland, could be that my mother had a talk with God and Mother Nature, could be that we were just ready. Whatever it was, I remember the tears we cried when we found out I was pregnant and there was a viable heartbeat. I remember the absolute joy we felt when we found out it was a girl. I remember how beautiful I felt all throughout my pregnancy. I remember going to the hospital for the delivery and I remember the minute she was born. She was more beautfiul than I pictured and she was healthy and I was once again in love.

She is definitely a handful and putting our parenting skills to the test with the terrible twos but the good definitely outweighs the odds.

I love your laugh
I love your personality
I love your curly hair
I love the way you make me feel with just a smile and hug
I love how you dance freely when music is playing
I love the artwork that adorns our kitchen table
I love that you are curious and smarter than I could have ever dreamed
I love that you are ALL girl, barbies, books, babies, and princesses oh my!
I love that you want me to paint your nails
I love that I get to see your daddy melt when you doing ANYTHING
I am excited to teach you all the things you need to know to be a strong woman
I love that I must have done something right to be blessed with you!

Happy Birthday Baby Girl! You are my salvation, heart, and soul and I wouldn't change one thing about you!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Taking stock....

I am indeed blessed. I have been doing inventory of my life and deciding what stays and what goes. I have been making lists in a journal....Many many lists just to get the clutter out of my head so I can sleep at night and focus at work during the day. One of my lists is what I truly can and cannot live without:

I can do without the crap that I have accumulated over the years...clothes, shoes, purses, scrapbooking supplies that could fill a warehouse.

I can do without all the material things in my life. I love nice things and have spent some serious coin on stupid shit that just gathers dust and doesn't really impress anybody.

I can do without my overpriced vehicle, though it is functional and not flashy

I can do without the constant pressure I put on myself to be the person everyone expects me to be

I can do without the guilt I constantly feel when I think I have let someone down

I can do without friends that constantly drain my bucket and refuse to fill it when I am dehydrated

I can do without society's unrealistic definition of what is beautiful and sexy based on outward appearances. Even the hottest men and women are unattractive if they are ugly on the inside

I CANNOT live without my children
I CANNOT live without my sisters, brother, nieces or nephews
I CANNOT live without my amazing girlfriends
I CANNOT live without my ability to provide a good home, food, and clothes for my family
I CANNOT continue to be a fool and only see the good in people...not all people are good and not all people deserve my trust right out of the gate
I CANNOT live a lie anylonger

It's funny how the lists differ and it is refreshing to get my priorities straight and out on paper.

Life is actually good now that I have decided on a path no matter how scary that path is....I'm going to follow my heart which has been screaming at the top of its lungs at me for far too long....

Wish me luck....

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

True Friends

I have been relying on my friends a lot lately. I truly do not know what I would do without the amazing people in my life I am lucky enough to call true friends. I saw this poem and thought it was appropriate for my post today:

A BEST FRIEND

A best friend
is always there,
whether you need advice,
or a pep talk,
or even a shoulder to cry on.
A best friend
listens with her heart
and is always honest with you,
even though the truth
may not be
what you want to hear.
A best friend
knows all your secrets,
understands your fears
shares your dreams.
A best friend
never stops believing in you
even if you give up
on yourself.
you are
that kind of friend
to me.
And no matter what happens,
you always will be.
You are my best friend....
my forever friend.
- Renee Duvall

Monday, August 2, 2010

My Travel Playlist

Music is a critical part of my life. It makes me laugh, it makes me cry, it takes me from today to a moment back in time instantly. Every month I travel, I make a new playlist. It depends on the mood I am in and what I want to be thinking about on my 6 hour flight. This week, I was feeling a little down. Going through a rough time in my life on so many levels and missing my mom so much my heart hurts! Five years has gone by so fast. I feel like she is slipping away from me at a time when I could use her advice more than I ever have. She was the only person I would share my burden with. She would not judge me for my actions, my selfishness or my absolute stupidity. She would tell me, "life is short Andrea, be happy."  I would give anything just to hear those words from her right now.

This playlist was AWESOME. It was the perfect mix of fun and meloncholy all at the same time. And it brought me back in time and helped me remember her in good times and bad.

1. Missing You (my all time favorite song)- Diana Ross
2. Runaway Train- Soul Asylum
3. Don't Let it End- Styx
4. Separate Ways- Journey
5.Only Time Will Tell- Asia
6. Look Away- Chicago
7.Foolish Heart- Steve Perry
8.Lullaby- Dixie Chicks
9. Cold Day in July- Dixie Chicks
10.Love the Way you Lie- Eminem and Rhianna
11. Run Around Sue- Dions
12. Feeling Good- Nina Simone
13. What a Fool Believes- Doobie Brothers
14. Dust in the Wind- Kansas
15. I Go Crazy- Paul Davis
16. Cat's in the Cradle- Harry Chapin
17. If you Leave me Now- Chicago
18.Losing my Religion- REM
19. The Way you Look Tonight- Frank Sinatra
20. Butterfly Kisses-
21. Time for me to Fly- REO Speedwagon
22. How to Save a Life-Fray
23. Beautiful- James Blunt
24. Last Kiss- Pearl Jam
25. The Dance- Garth Brooks
26. Here without You- 3 Doors Down

Many of these songs remind me of times in my life when my mom was there for me the most. Anytime my heart was breaking, or I let her down, or I felt lonely....

Yes, they may be depressing, but they actually lightened my heavy heart and put me in a good place to do what I need to make things better. These songs are about loss...of love, life, or otherwise...but at the end of the day, there is always somebody out there with worse problems than I have. And just when I think I am alone, God puts someone in my path to remind me that not only am I not alone, I am not crazy.

Peace out!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Day One of NaBloPoMo

So I get this email about NaBloPoMo which is the challenge of posting something, anything, every day for the month of August. As if the weekly reminder I haven't updated my blog from my dear friend wasn't enough...I get this, a dare...a double dog dare to post every day....that is 31 days in a ROW! Of course the topic they gave this month was "green"...And I'm all for the environment, I recycle...but that isn't an enticing enough topic for me to blog about.....So I am going to wing it...

I traveled from Arizona to North Carolina today as I do at least once a month every month. Normally I do not travel on Sunday's, but my meeting is on Monday and I had no choice. Here is what I observed in my 6 hour travel adventure:

1. I have been lonely lately...not sure why as I don't have one minute of peace in my everyday life...but a feeling of loniless none the less...I never ever talk to anybody on the plane...and I mean NEVER...It isn't that I am anitsocial, but I am anti-flying...a chicken shit of the airways...anyhoo....I go through my normal ritual of pulling out my iPod and book and put them in my seat as I hoist my bag in the stuffed over head compartment. And low and behold....not only does the Kevin Bacon look alike strike up a converstation with me immediately, I don't have my normal "oh crap, are you going to talk my ear off the entire flight?" feeling! We talk for a good 75% of the flight! I don't read, I don't work, I don't listen to music, I don't even notice the turbulence... I have one of the funnest conversations I have had in  a while! Thank you  Green Bay Packer fan from Charolette by way of Salt Lake City! You were a gift to me today!

2. I am hoping to actually SEE the airport in Charolette NC. I hear it is  beautiful but I wouldn't know as my less than favorite airline makes it so I have to RUN until I puke to make my connection!
3. Some men are still gentlemen.... I'm out of breath, pissed off that I just made my flight, breaking my shoe in the process, and there in seat 1B next to me  is the nicest man on the planet. Not only does he find room in the overhead compartment for my bag, he spends the 28 minute flight talking about his wife of 26 years, his kids and marriage and all of the things I have been struggling with lately...it's like God knew I needed you and you were there...so thank YOU commercial real estate romantic from Charolette to Raleigh...
4. If you open your heart, good things DO happen
5. Bloody Mary's on an airplane taste 10 times better than a bar or at home
6. My husband is right, we need to move away from AZ to enjoy the rest of this beautiful country and our marriage, starting with a vacation to Hawaii, or San Fransisco or ANYWHERE!
7. Boys who play college football are hot! Boy from Clemson College in seat 7D reading a book from my favorite author, you can stare at my butt when I am storing my laptop bag under the  seat in front of me anytime. LOL! :)
8. Having flashbacks throughout the flight of your husband jumping you on your new couch when you are teasing him about men at work checking you out, isn't a bad thing....
9. The feeling of losing 8 pounds in 4 weeks is encouraging
10. Using a pen and paper to write down all the clutter in your head is empowering
11. Knowing and embracing confidence as a woman is sexy
12. The Marriott in downtown Durham has the best Caprese Salad, grilled salmon and smoked cream corn ever!
13. Asparagus does in fact make your pee smell funny...:)

That's all I can think of for now, the 3 hour time difference is brutal and my thought process is fuzzy...

more tomorrow!

Friday, July 2, 2010

Back on the scale again...

On the scale again(queue Willi Nelson "on the road again") ...just hate to get on the scale again....I've spent 3 months getting fatter by the day...oh I hate to get on the scale again... :) I'm a laugh riot...just crack me myself and I up on a daily basis....

Well peeps I did it and I allowed myself exactly 8 hours to be really pissed off! I am back on Weight Watchers which has this annoying policy that you must weigh in...so I did...and not only did I gain my 12 pounds back, I added a few for good measure. Fuck and me! So...I'm not mad anymore, I'm focused. My thyroid is back in check and I am back to getting serious about meeting my goal!

I have updated my counters over there ====> and let me tell you, they WILL NEVER go up again. Today is the first day of the rest of my life right? I am in control. Nobody can force me to not exercise or eat badly. That's on me! So...here I go again...

Stay tuned...it's time to get smoking hot again!

On a side note...I would like to thank a couple of girls for posting pictures on Facebook that have motivated me to get back on the horse...Hogg and Kell, you two girls look INCREDIBLE! Thank you. :)

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

A few of my favorite things...

7/4/10 EDITED to include $$ for each item...

So I'm sitting at my desk performing my afternoon ritual- and by ritual, I mean the lag in the afternoon where I have already had 3 diet cokes and still look like I need a good nights rest...my skin is oily and tired and I need serious lip gloss to perk me up...anyway, I am performing my ritual and I realize that I am truly a creature of habit. When it comes to skin care that is...I also realize that there are things I have ALWAYS had at my desk, ever since I had a desk of my own starting 18 years ago...things that I LOVE and cannot do without no matter what. I actually have two sets of these things..one for home and one for work. Yea, I'm a freak...most of you will probably be thinking, "dude, put them in a bag and carry them back and forth"...the rest of you, well you understand me and the need for CONVENIENCE....Now, the brand names of these things may have changed, but the things themselves have not!

I'm telling you ladies, and even gentlemen, making this ritual, that takes all of 3 minutes, part of your afternoon,will have your skin happy, glowing, and not old and haggard any longer! At least that is what I tell myself to feel good....and to justify the cost...:)

My favorite things that I am never without are (in order that I use them in my ritual):

1. Oil Blotting Tissues (my fav is MAC Blot Film)- I have oily skin...especially in the summer and it is disgusting. I have a ginormous forehead as it is, I don't need an oil slick accentuating it...know what I mean? Anyhoo...these little wonders blot the oil from your face without removing your make up.! The MAC brand is a bit pricey at $13.50 a pack but you can also get the Clean and Clear brand from any drugstore for half the price and they work just as good. The MAC films are just larger...for people with GIANT foreheads like me. :)


2. Face Mist- I have used Evian Facial Mist in the past, but my all time favorite facial hydrator is MAC  Fix+. It is basically purified water infused with vitamins that hydrates your face giving it a dewy finish. It feels so good and relieves the stress from your skin...I love to use it when I travel as my skin gets pretty dehydrated from the nasty recycled air on the plane. Be careful that you don't get your neighbor with overspray. LOL! not that I would know anything about that...:) ($18)



3. Lush Sweet Lips Lip Scrub- There is a store that sells all natural cosmetics called LUSH. They sell two of my favorites on this list. This one is their sugar lip scrub. You basically lick your lips, rub this YUMMY scrub on your lips to exfoliate them, then you lick it off. It is edible...It makes your lips soft and ready for my favorite item #4...or for kissing.... I use it before bed too! ($8.95)


4. Lip balm- and my favorite is Rosebud Lip Salve shown here: it is hands down the best thing EVER and hey, I started using it way back when IN Style magazine told me that Gwenyth Paltrow loved it! You used to only be able to order it online, but now they have it everywhere. It comes in a fun round tin, and smells really good. I use it all of the time especially right before bed...after my Lush Lip Scrub (see #1 above). ($6)
5. Cuticle Cream- I was an all time fan of Sally Hanson Cuticle Cream for years, until I found this new little gem. It is called Lemony Flutter Cuticle Butter and it can be found at LUSH. It can be used on hands, feet, etc..I use it for my cuticles in the summer and the backs of my hands in the winter. Again, this is another thing I use before bed too. It smells really good!  I NEVER have hang nails or dead skin around my nails. This stuff is amazing!!! ($12.95)




6. Nude Lip Liner- I used to use Revlon Colorstay lip liner in Fleshtone until they discontinued it after 8 years! Ugh! I was pissed! Anyhoo, I have several favorites including MAC lipliners in Spice and Whirl, but my go to fav is Loreal Color Riche Lip Liner in Vintage Nude. It is the perfect shade for my favorite lip gloss in #7 below. ($7.95)



7. Lip Gloss- I am a (excuse the expression) make up whore. Everyone who knows me will vouch that I own too many eyeshadows, lip sticks, lip glosses, etc to count...I love pretty make up. It makes me feel great! As many lip glosses as I have coveted over the years there is one that has been my all time favorite for exactly 7 years. I wear it almost everyday....well, because it is part of my afternoon ritual. It is the PERFECT shade of nude. You can wear it alone for an all over gloss, or with the lip liner above for the perfect nude lip...goes GREAT with smoky eye looks! It is Loreal Colour Juice in Carmel Creme. This one is getting harder and harder to find. I had to order it on line the last time...($7.95)




So there you have it! I honestly love these things. Feel free to let me know of any new things you love that I should try!

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Look who is back!

I'm back! This much awaited blog update has been tough for me. I have been really busy...I mean REALLY busy...and honestly, not really motivated to come up with a creative blog post. While having dinner with my BFF awesome blogger the QUEEN, she reminded me that my blogs need not be creative, nor for anyone else. Type to get the crap out of your head...and two weeks later, here it is!

While traveling for my job this week, I observed a few things that really made me think.

1. On the plane ride out to NC, I noticed an attactive elderly couple sitting in front of me. They were probably in their 80's and the woman had to be assisted out of her wheelchair and into her seat. Somewhere between the two beverage services, the gentleman helped his wife to the restroom. While watching this man, who was obviously very much in love with this woman, I began to cry. I don't know why...it touched me and I realized that I want that...I want to grow old with someone that will help me to the bathroom on an airplane when I am 80. More importantly, I want someone to look at me like that when I am 80.

2. The airport in Charolette NC has a restroom attendant. One of those women who pulls the paper towels down for you and offers you scope and hair spray for tips. I want to give a shout out to Belva, the woman who did this job with more sparkle than Tinkerbell at Disneyland. She was in such a good mood, she was singing, and literally wiped up the floor in my stall before I used it. For someone who has a bit of an issue with public bathroom germs, this is not a job I would pick for myself. But this woman, she loved her job. She made me smile at 5:00 in the morning AZ time. She made me realize I could show a little more enthusiasm for my job which I actually do love and it does not involve wiping ANYTHING left behind by some nasty ass woman....come on ladies...you have to agree that the womens' restroom is probably the most disgusting thing you encounter during your day....Anyhoo...thank you Belva for making me see that it doesn't matter what you do, as long as you have fun doing it. $5 wasn't enough, but it was all I had....

3. I have a serious issue with certain noises...my husband calls it my bitchy noise sensitivity...teeth on forks, chewing with your mouth open, slurping of liquid, chewing ice, and rude cud chewing gum poppers! These noises litterly make the hair on the back of my neck stand up and if my spine wasn't in the way, they would make my head spin around Exorcist stye...So, we are taking off out of Charolette and I keep hearing this person behind me smack his gum....and making this popping sound and then giggling. We were taxing so I couldn't have my headphones or music on...and the engines were not loud enough to drown out the sound of this gum popping/slopping person! I wanted to turn around and tell them to spit it out but the FAA frowns on you threatening other passengers...halfway through the flight, I get up to use the restroom and I get a good look at the gum chewer....turns out, I am the biggest, impatient asshole on the planet....the guilty party? A special needs child whose mother is at her wits end. I immediately smile at the mother and give her "I'm sorry for the bitchy thoughts I was having" look...and silently say a prayer for this woman, and thank God for my two healthy children....

For those of my wonderful friends who have reminded me lately how much they enjoy reading my blog, I am going to do my best to post at least once a week from now on!

Monday, May 24, 2010

LOST and other shows that jumped the shark with the finale....

Do any of you out there watch LOST? Have you watched it from the beginning or were you like me and my husband who joined the phenomenon late? We started watching/obsessing over this show in between seasons 4 and 5. At which point we watched all 4 seasons within a 2 month period to get "caught up" before season 5 started. We started on a vacation day and were hooked by the first episode. It was exciting to have something that we mutually enjoyed watching on TV. I mean not since Melrose Place has my husband even pretended to be interested in ANYTHING I watch on TV. Well, there are exceptions...Dexter, Entourage, How I Met your Mother, and....well, that's about it. Small compared to the number of shows scheduled to record on my DVR every week...yes, I am a lazy ass who loves to watch TV...Anyway, we were so excited to put the kids to bed, run to the bedroom and start on a new episode! Even the last two seasons when we had to wait with the rest of the LOST watching world for the new episode, we looked forward to Tuesday nights.

However, somewhere between seasons 4 and 5, I started to get really frustrated that every week I left with more questions than answers. And became excessivly pissed when the writers wasted valuable time on "filler" epidsodes giving background and useless facts on characters that had NOTHING to do with the plot.  I stuck with it. I knew there was only one more season and I was PROMISED answers....so I watched....and I watched....and I watched...18 times this season! 18 hours of my life I am NEVER going to get back...And by the time the last NEW episode before the series finale, I knew I was going to take it up the ass and never know if any of it was real or fantasy. And sure enough, the writers did not disappoint me.

The finale BLEW! But, I am okay...I don't really need to know how Jack dying on the island brought everyone together in "heaven"...I don't really need to know if the time on the island was real...why the "others" took all the children...why John Locke could walk on the island or why in the hell Jack had a child in the sideways universe that never exisited...no...I don't NEED to know those things.

However, not since I read IT by Stephen King have I been so disappointed that a 1400 page book or 6 year series be so incredible up until the last 50 pages, 5 episodes and then FUCK it all up?! I mean really? really? REALLY???? The creepy scary clown that kept me up at night turns out to be a ridiculous giant spider with one eye? And the Island is actually purgatory, which was rebuffed by the writers from the start? Great book...great show...why couldn't they close the deal...follow it through to the end? They are incredible minds...gifted storytellers...why couldn't they close the deal??? I was there...I watched...I cared...

I'm just saying....like Seinfeld and Sopranos...the LOST series finale did not leave me wanting more....it left me wondering WTF made these incredibly talented writers bail at the most crucial moment?

What do you think?

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!

Mothers Day comes with mixed emotions for me. On one hand, I am sad...my mother died 5 years ago and I still miss her. To this day, anytime I walk by a display of Mothers Day cards I feel my chest tighten and my eyes water.

On the other hand, the positive happy hand, I realize of all the things in my life, I love being a mother the most! I have two of the most incredible children a woman could ask for. They are naughty, and smart, and beautiful, and sometimes drive me to need a cocktail, but at the end of the day, I am BLESSED beyond belief! They honestly make me a better person.  No matter what kind of day I have had, I can always count on them for hugs, kisses, laughter and love. That kind of unconditional love is addicting. And even though I feel less than perfect at times, I know in my heart of hearts I am an incredible mother...and my own mother would be proud of me.

Thank you God and Mother Nature for this gift. I won't let you down. I am raising happy and crazy, well adjusted children. Happy Mothers Day to you and all of my blog reading/writing incredibe mothers!

I hope it is a great day for all Mothers out there! Mine started with coffee and kisses in bed...it is off to a great start!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Something happened on the way to awesome....


As the first half of this year quickly winds down, I am checking in with you all on my progress towards my 40 before I am 40 goal. I started out strong and then sort of got derailed on my way to awesome. I was working really hard and seeing results, and then BAM…nothing was happening even though I was still trying really hard. I am pretty in tune with my body and I knew something was definitely wrong!

I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and there are people in this world we are destined to meet. Our spouses, our children, our closest friends, and yes even sales clerks at the Aveda store in Scottsdale Fashion Square Mall. While talking to this girl about my recent frustrating and even more embarrassing hair loss, she and I discovered we had the same issue. Hypothyroidism or an underactive thyroid….She asked me how my doctor was treating my condition and suggested I go see a Naturopath; a doctor that specializes in homeopathic medicine. These amazing people hunt down the root cause of what makes you feel like crap and treat that instead of the symptoms! What a concept! Encouraging your body to heal itself naturally instead of prescribing medications that have such horrible side effects that don’t ever make you better!

I truly believe in this…so I went…I filled out the 20 page very personal questionnaire…I mean how does knowing how many times I masturbate each week matter to a naturopath???  MY doctor never asked me that…it was a rectal exam on paper. But, I wanted…no needed to be honest in order to heal myself so I completed this 20 page interview…and two 2 hour apts, and $500 later I find out that not only did my doctor not treat my thyroid issue correctly, he scared the living crap out of me about my cholesterol…which come to find out is only a little high but can totally be treated with diet and exercise. Oh and missed a serious Vitamin D deficiency which by the way can cause high cholesterol…What the fuck batman? I am a little more than pissed that I trusted what my doctor said, the doctor who drew my blood and spent a total of 15 minutes with me, and just took the medication prescribed, which by the way, I would have to be on for the rest of my life without ANY relief! Had I not met this girl at Aveda, I may have to had to settle for being fat, crazy, and bald! How hot is that?

So peeps…this incredible doctor not only put me on the correct dose of a natural thyroid, Fish Oil, Vitamin D, supplements that have made my skin and nails gorgeous, she talked to me…truly listened to me….learned who I was and what was troubling me, and more importantly, she gave me peace of mind that I am going to be just fine.

I tell you what, at my first appointment, she recommended a “clean eating” diet which I am now following, and within one week, my symptoms are MUCH less noticeable. I am not tired, grouchy, bloated, or foggy. Like I said, my skin and nails are glowing and happy and I have enough energy to make it through the ass kicking workout I am doing.

I’m not one for dishing out medical advice as I firmly believe that western medicine is necessary and heroic in many cases, but I am now a big advocate of alternative medicine as well!

I am back on my way to AWESOME!!!!!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Paying it Forward....

A FB friend sent me something about Paying it Forward Friday last week. Well, I missed the note until today. However, as things/coincidences tend to happen that freak me out in my universe, I actually did Pay it Forward on Saturday night without knowing about the note, or even that there was a whole day last week dedicated to Paying it Forward.

Saturday night was date night....long overdue date night for me and the hubs...we went to Cheesecake Factory for dinner and drinks. Well, it must have been prom because the place was packed with young kids dressed to the 9's. Some of the dresses these girls were wearing....holy crap! Did their mothers NOT see them before they left the house? And I could make a fortune teaching these couples how to make sure their outfits compliment eachother for pictures...What? a white dress with a cream tux just doesn't photograph well....Anyway...that rant is for another blog post.

So my husband and I are sitting on the patio, enjoying our adult beverages, no kids interrupting our conversation, the gorgeous evening and beautiful Arizona sunset when the cutest couple walks in. From the back, her dress looks adorable, it is deep purple and the guy looks great in his tux with matching tie...I was impressed when the boy pulled out her chair, and more surprised to see this young girl was about 8 months pregnant. Instead of feeling sad for her and what she has to look forward to as a teenage mother, I notice that she is glowing and I am proud of her for making the effort to look beautiful and attend her prom.

I'm not sure what happened to me, but something stirred. I have sisters who were teenage mothers. Neither of them finished high school, and as far as I know, neither of them ever went to prom. I wanted to do something nice for this couple. But what to do? ...buy their dinner was my first thought, but after discussing it with the waiter, that would have actually been difficult as they just sat down and we were finishing up. Talking it over with my husband, we decided that we would give my niece (a single teenage mother) more money than she expected for babysitting and buy the couple's dessert.

In order to do that, I had to purchase a gift card. I bought the card and gave it to the couple telling them I remembered my prom (hell I went to 8 of them) and to have a good time. They were shocked yet very thankful.

What my husband doesn't know, and what the couple must have discovered after they opened the gift card to buy dessert, was that the gift card more than covered dessert AND their dinner. And while I'm sure they had their own money to spend, I remember how hard I had to work for my money and how much prom cost over 20 years ago. I would have crapped my pants if someone did that for me and my date! Hell, I would crap my pants if someone did that for me now!

I don't know what stirred in me that night, but it felt good and I want more of that feeling!

I just hope they pay it foward somehow.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Time to get moving....

As some of you already know, I am the matron of honor in my nieces wedding in September. We went and ordered our dresses today. They are so beautiful, and in MY color. I am going to rock this dress!
No this image is not me. BUT, it will be! I have 4 months to get in better shape. Notice I said better. The dress already looks really great on me. I ordered it in a size that fits me now so as to not add any undue pressure or set myself up for failure. However, I don't want to just look great. I want to look jaw-dropping drop dead gorgeous in this uber sexy dress! Did I mention the wedding is in Vegas? Oh yes, even more reason to look amazing! And I made sure the dress can be altered down by one or two sizes just in case.

Now, onto the "get in shape" plan! I need someone to motivate me, to hold me accountable, which is why I wanted to hire a personal trainer back in January. However, we decided that it did not fit into our budget so I just hit the gym doing my own thing instead. And it was totally working. My arms were getting toned, my stomach was getting flatter and my legs were getting so strong and sexy. I was getting compliments from my husband, friends and co-workers and then I just got in my own way back in March and fell off the wagon...I'm such a pain in my own ass sometimes. (And yes, I know those of you reading, are nodding your head in absolute agreement!) but stop it....:)

What to do?...What to do my fellow bloggers?...I need to see results quickly, or I get discouraged. I started doing this workout by the Beachbody series called Slim in 6 and results came quickly. Like within 2 weeks!
But it wasn't enough variety, I just got bored, and sores on my knees from all the floor work (um...get your head out of the gutter)  My friend is doing the P90x series and  it is working. They are only doing the workout too, not the diet. But after looking at that workout, it just seems a bit too much for me. However, I found this  Chalene Extreme.

I love that it is a 90 day series broken into 3 different phases. And the workouts are different each day of the week so I shouldn't get bored. This is totally doable!

I am going to do the whole program including before and after measurements and photos just to see if it really worked. And, if I get up enough courage, I will post them for all to see.

I will keep you all posted throughout the next 90 days on how it goes! And Kelly, don't give up on me and the Bikram Yoga thing....I need to find the time and $$ to commit to it first.

Stay tuned!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Genius...apparently not!

I love music. It is the most consistent joy in my life. It can put me in the best mood, make me get my groove on, dance around the kitchen, cry, bring me back to an exact moment in time, and well just make me feel better! That being said.....Am I the last person on the iPod using planet to discover the most awesome little function called Genius on iTunes? And by discover, I mean a close friend told me about it, I didn't even find it myself and I am out there ALL OF THE TIME! This is where I would make a sarcastic comment and say "genius"...no pun intended...

So...having decided to get back into working out, I needed new music to run my ass  butt of to. My old list was predictable, wasn't doing it for me, and basically sucked...

I selected Brass Monkey by the Beastie Boys (judge me if you dare, but this will go down as one of my all time favorite songs! And I would bet money you know all the words and don't switch the station when it comes on the radio!) Anyhoo....I selected my song and viola! here is the list that iTunes created for me.

Now, it is fair to say I have been in a bitchy mood  funk as of late and even fairer to say I have had a disappointing health issue that made me hate exercise no interest whatsoever in working out. But I dragged my booty  ass to the gym and discovered that iTunes did me VERY VERY well! This "little" list which I share with you as a present from me, helped me walk/run 3 miles and burn over 600 calories tonight!

Of course this list was based on my music library which is ginormous. Feel free to enjoy this list the next time you need to work off some aggression at the gym. I promise, you will not be disappointed!


  1. One, Two Step- Ciara
  2. My Humps- Black Eyed Peas
  3. Love Lockdown- Kanye West
  4. Do You Think I'm Sexy- Rod Stewart (Oh yea, I've seen him in concert twice...Once with the Queen)
  5. Rythym is a Dancer-Snap!
  6. Right Round- Flo  Rida
  7. Poker Face- Lady Gaga
  8. Womanizer- Britney Spears
  9. Tik Tok- Ke$ha
  10. Can you Forgive Her- Pet Shop Boys
  11. Wish You Were Here- Incubus
  12. Everlong- Foo Fighters (My ALL TIME FAVORITE song to run to)
  13. Twilight Zone- Golden Earring
  14. Yeah- Usher
  15. Pepper- Butthole Surfers
  16. Numb-Encore- Linkin Park/Jay Z (Another gem when running)
  17. Missing- Everything but the Girl
  18. Fergalicious- Fergie
  19. Paralyzer- Finger Eleven
  20. Without Me- Eminem
  21. Stonger- Kayne West
  22. The Most Fun a Girl Can Have- Panic at the Disco
  23. Hit that Perfect Beat- Bronski Beat
  24. Shake That- Eminem
  25. Brass Monkey- Beastie Boys
  26. Nuthin But A "G"thang- Dr. Dre
  27. Rappers Delight- Sugar Hill Gang
  28. Ass Like That- Eminem
  29. It's Like That- Run DMC
  30. Me, Myself and I- De La Soul ( I didn't even know I had this song in my library)
  31. Don't Believe the Hype- Public Enemy
  32. Supersonic- JJ Fad
  33. You Talk Too Much- Run DMC
  34. Show Me The Money- Petey Pablo
  35. No Sleep Till Brooklyn- Beastie Boys
  36. Funky Cold Medina- Ton Loc (oh yea baby)
  37. U Can't Touch This- MC Hammer
  38. This is Why I'm Hot- Mims
  39. Crack a Bottle- Eminem
  40. Square Dance Rap- Sir Mix-a-lot (WTF? I know right?)
  41. Switch- Will Smith
  42. Go Girl- Pitbull
Thank you to my BFF for showing me what I'm sure is brand new technology...

and... You're welcome. :)

Weight Loss? No way!

Holy cow people! I'm sure many of you are wondering how my 40 pound weight loss goal is coming along. Well let me tell you, until this morning, NOT good! I am going to the doctor this week to get my thyroid thing checked out and to a counselor to get my head checked out, but maybe I don't need to do those things...

For the last few weeks, I have been quickly sinking into a pit of self despair when it comes to my yo-yo like weight. I have avoided that little black box with numbers on it for a while, and just to torture myself today I stepped on it. And guess what??!!! I have lost 5 pounds!

Stress, it is a beautiful thing. It can kill me, but at least it is going to make me skinny before doing so!

Hmmm...this new weight loss has my mind thinking a little clearer and my pants fitting a little looser. With everything going on in my life lately, such as my father being ill, my husband and I both trying to hang on by a thread, trying to lose weight, trying to make everyone else feel good about themselves, my cup is pretty much empty, I have nothing left to give anyone but my children. Not to mention the stress and heartbreak of exterminating people from my life who make me feel bad about myself left and right. But this, this kiss on the cheek from the Man upstairs, is a sign.

Let go...just let go, and everything will be okay!

Okay....I'm letting go.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Mother of the Year...

My fireplace mantel is overflowing with the trophy's people. I know you are jealous, but don't fret. You too can win a "Mother of the Year" award! We have all done it, our kids have all suffered from it, and  dammit, we should be proud of it!!!

You know what I am talking about. Those little mirrors we call children. The moments when you KNOW they are learning from you. And I don't mean when they brush their teeth, finish their vegetables, and pick up their clothes without being asked. No, I mean the moment you realize they hear every word you say and see every move you make.

There are so many stories I can recall and more get added everyday. So as my gift to you, current and future Mother's of the Year, I am going to share a new MOTY story with you each week! Please feel free to post your own, as I know I am not alone and LOVE to laugh!

MOTY Trophy #1:

My nephew turned 10 this week and we went to my sisters house for dinner to celebrate. When I asked baby girl (2.5 years old) what we should get cousin #9 for his birthday, she thought hard about it and said:
"Mommy, we should get him Smarties, Cheetos, and Nemo Fish Snacks"!!! Apparently, her 3 favorite food groups.

Oh yea, MOTY!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Bumper stickers I love, but would never put on my car...

I recently took a trip to Las Vegas with two of my sisters to plan my nieces wedding. We had a blast! While looking for goodies to bring home to my kids, we went into the magic shop in New York New York. This place was amazing. AMAZING! Every magic trick you could ever dream of!

And the best rack of bumper stickers you have ever seen. I am not a bumper sticker kind of gal, but I am DEFINITELY a LMAO kind of girl.

The following stickers made me laugh...or was it the belly full of beer and cider?? probably both...either way, here are some gems that "accidentally" ended up on my camera...Enjoy!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

WTF Moments for me This Week..

Forgive me Father, and all my blog readers who have reminded me they are waiting for a new post, for I have sinned...it has been 17 days since my last post! whew...I always feel better after confession don't you?

I have no excuse except that I have been so freaking busy the last two weeks and 3 days, I have not had time to catch my breath let alone say drum up enough nerve endings or brain power to write anything that is understandable or even worth reading. This has been an interesting, emotional, hectic, hormonal, wine drinking, hair pulling, crazy week! Just some highlights and things I have been thinking about lately...

  • I realize that I am not the perfect mom and I do want to give my children away at times and often think WTF was Mother Nature thinking when she allowed me to conceive? 
  • I realize my expectations of people are way too high and am surprised to find myself disappointed when I hear they have acted human  
  • I realize that crying hysterically for no reason can scare the shit out of your husband
  •  I realize my husband considers my business travel time is vacation for me and that I should think of it that way too...WTF? 
  • I realize by nature I think life should be fair and just and should suck it up when people act like selfish assholes UNLESS it impacts me personally 
  • I realize PMS stands for Pretty Much Sucks to be a woman every 28 days 
  • I realize that a 6.9 earthquake felt hundreds of miles away can make you seasick
  • I realize being a slob impacts my husband mentally and should be more considerate when leaving my crap laying around the house 
  • I realize the Powerball Retirement Plan is NOT a smart option when thinking of my financial future
  • I realize that my drastic weight gain and loss is directly related to my thyroid problem.....and it is a serious motivation killer
  • I realize I took my beautiful hair for granted until it prematurely started thinning and falling out
  • I realize paying someone to color my hair is complete laziness and stupidity but I miss the heck out of it
  • I realize if you want something done the way you want it done, you should do it yourself!
  • I realize setting a 30 day sex goal after 13 years of marriage is impossible and am just setting myself up for failure
  • I realize I am deeply disturbed and very disappointed in Nike for paying Tiger Woods what i'm sure was a grotesque amount of money to clear his image by using VOIP of his father...I would be happier if it was an ad showing his wife kicking his ass
  • I realize that 2 days in Las Vegas is all I can handle and afford
  • I realize Let it Ride, while fun to play, has the WORST odds in the house
  • I realize after helping plan my nieces wedding, there really is a drive thru wedding chapel complete with a drive thru menu...I assume "server" is the minister...see:
  • I realize no matter how many years someone lives, they will always say life if short
  • I realize that while advances in medical technology have helped to extend the life of the human race, it can also prolong the inevitable which is brutal and sometimes cruel
  • I realize my children are watching me and DO hear everything I say as demonstrated by my daughter when putting her babies to bed..
  • I realize I need to yell less
  • I realize a good pair of ear plugs IS a necessity when you have a 2 1/2 daughter whose scream pierces the sound barrier
  • I realize I need to be a more positive person and that wallowing in self pity just makes people want to run in the other direction when they see you coming
  • I realize hormones can f*ck a woman up! And any man within a 5 mile radius of said woman for that matter
  • I realize that crying does cleanse the soul, but so does a good bottle of wine
  • I realize that while smoking is absolutely the most disgusting habit on the planet, I miss it at times (no worries, I WILL NOT pick up this habit again)
  • I realize I interrupt a lot, but am always interested in what people have to say
  • I realize every woman should have girlfriends for their mental, physical and spiritual well being and I have been blessed with the best group of them on the planet
  • I realize I miss my friends VERY much when they are on vacation, I am on vacation, or just have not seen them in a while
  • I realize that while Lolos Fried Chicken and Waffles is VERY yummy Weight Watchers would probably arrest me for eating there
  • I realize that you are never too old to color Easter eggs
  • I realize that baking is therapeutic for me and, thanks to a couple of my favorite blogs, that homemade cupcakes are THE BEST!

  • I realize that too much stress and Diet Coke can cause chest pains that resemble a heart attack
  • I realize life comes full circle and so does everything in it
  • I realize lipstick CAN make you feel better about yourself
  • I realize it is those people who have presented the biggest challenge to me have been my best teachers, even if it was to show me what NOT to do, say, act, etc...
  • I realize that my mother is looking down on me laughing her ass off seeing me deal with my daughter who I can only imagine is doing to me EXACTLY what I did to my mother
  • I realize the heart IS big enough to forgive, but will not completely heal until you truly forget
  • I realize I write this blog for myself and nobody probably reads it, but I LOVE when somebody leaves a comment.. :)
I could go on forever, but will stop now...I realize blogging at work is probably not the smartest idea on the planet.
XOXOXO

Monday, March 22, 2010

Random Thoughts for the Day...

I typically delete emails I receive at work that have nothing to do with work and more to do with my mortal demise if I don't quickly send to 10 people I love. However, seeing that my post yesterday was sad, I thought some of these were kind of funny...Thanks to my BIL for making me smile, even if he did break my "don't send that shit to my work email" rule!

Random Thoughts for the Day (with the exception of the part in () in #1, I did not make these up...I don't know who did...if I did, I would give them the credit and thank them for making me laugh today...:):

  1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die (or find and destroy the bag of "toys" in your closet).
  2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.
  3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
  4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.
  5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
  6. Was learning cursive really necessary?
  7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
  8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.
  9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.
  10. Bad decisions make good stories.
  11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.
  12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.
  13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.
  14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this -- ever.
  15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? HELLO?!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?
  16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
  17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
  18. My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day "Mom what would happen if you ran over a ninja?" How the hell do I respond to that?
  19. I think the freezer deserves a light as well..
  20. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller or Bud Lights than Kays.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Life goes by fast...yada, yada, yada....

Just a quick warning to you all this is not my normal happy go lucky post. So if you are looking for a laugh, today is not the day to read my blog...

How many different expressions have you heard about how quickly time flies? Stop and smell the flowers, life is too short to be unhappy, live every day like it's your last, live life to the fullest....the list goes on and on. There are entire bookstores, churches, TV programs devoted to the topic. Reminding people that life is short has become a very lucrative business for many people. It's a simple concept really. One that in most cases finally sinks in when it is too late to do anything about it....And it's easy to say the words....I have heard them so often from so many sources...hell, I've repeated them myself too many times to count... I have become immune to the true meaning behind the sentiment. Until recently....when my father, who is 70 and dying, said the words "I cannot believe how fast it went"...

My dad is ill. Very ill. Of course his ailments are from bad lifestyle choices including many years of alcohol and tobacco abuse. Neither of which matter when you are faced with 3 choices, pull the plug and let nature take its course, keep the plug in and let him get better until the next time, or put him on life support, which he does not want....all 3 suck....all 3 end in the inevitable. Me and my 7 siblings becoming orphans and taking another journey to Ireland to lay him to rest next to his wife, our mother, of 48 years.

Not sure how I feel about that yet. And while my dad may still have many months left ahead of him, I know he is tired. I know he is sad and has been since my mom died 5 years ago. I know he has regrets and has found God in time to ask for forgiveness. I know he has lived 70 long years and feels he didn't take the time to enjoy life, because he had to work so hard to support his family.... and I know our time with him is limited. So, to my dad I say this...
"I love you. Thank you for giving me the most amazing brother and 6 sisters anyone could ask for. Thank you for teaching me how to love with my whole heart no matter the consequences. Thank you for being such an incredible judge of character and keeping me from making mistakes that would alter the course of my life. And even though my childhood was tough and we did without a lot of things, the one thing we never did without was love. And I bet if you ask any rich kid who had everything but love from their parents, they would tell you they wished for love. You raised us to be smart and strong and beautiful on the inside. You taught us to have respect for ourselves,our bodies, our family and others no matter their lot in life. No money on the planet could teach the values I grew up with and am hopefully passing on to my children. For these gifts dad, I thank you and I love you with my whole heart."
I went to a wedding today in which my husband was the best man. It was at a beautiful farm with lots of sun, flowers, animals, and life. It was the type of wedding that makes you love your husband all over again...besides, he looked hot in that suit...And as I sit coloring with my 2 1/2 year old daughter, they played the song that I danced to with my dad at my wedding and the tears started rolling...I didn't even have time to be embarrassed because my daughter looked at me and said "mommy, why you cry? I be a good girl"....I looked up at my husband and my son and realized the name of the song was appropriate...

It was Unforgettable by Nat King Cole and his daughter Natalie Cole....

Friday, March 19, 2010

Vacation isn't supposed to be this exhausing....is it?

I have been on vacation for Spring Break this week. A whole week of vacation sounds like a dream, but holy crap, I feel like I need a week off to recover from being off for a week! I know I sound like a big fat whiner right now, but seriously, this week has been exhausing. AND as I sit down with a nice full glass of whine wine to recap my week with you all, I realize IT ISN'T OVER YET!

Monday was spent cleaning out our den to make it a "game" room for the kids...ridding it of all of my useless crap craft shit and trying to organize the stuff I actually use.

Tuesday was spent shopping for Bridesmaid and Flower Girl dressess for my nieces wedding. Probably my favorite day this week as with my weight loss, I didn't look like a fat cow in the sexy long strapless number we settled on. And seeing my daughter, the flower girl,  looking like a princess in all of the satin, tulle, and lace made me one proud mommy. That night was spent making Irish Carbomb Cupcakes and delivering them to people I love. OMG...you have to try the recipe I totally borrowed from The Vanilla Bean

Wednesday was St. Patrick's Day. I am 50% Irish so this holiday means a lot to me. I spent a lot of time remembering my mother who was 100% Irish. Our entire family traveled to Ireland 4 years ago to sprinkle her ashes in Galaway Bay on March 17. We spent the other 9 days drinking ourselves into a stupor...it was AWESOME! Anyway, the other part of the day was spent having breakfast with my husband and son, and then shopping for our kids with my hubby...It is always nice to get alone time together, even if it is spent running errands. Wednesday night was family meal at my sisters house. Corned Beef and Cabbage, Guiness, and THE cupcakes...it was yummmmmy!

Thursday we took the kids to Makutu's Island which is an indoor treehouse and arcade. After a few necessary rounds of Ms. PacMan and Galaga, my husdand and I spent the time playing Doodle Bowling on my iPhone...and of course, I am still trying to beat his high score. Thursday night was spent with a group of wonderful women who participate in our Stampin Up club...(scrapbooking, rubber stamping, cardmaking). Being creative can be freaking exhausing, but these women are so much fun, it is worth it!

Friday....today was spent running more errands including getting my poor dog groomed (see I F'ing HATE PETSMART blog later) cleaning my wreck of a house, worrying about my dad and youngest sister, and baking cookies for a few amazing women in my life who are having a bit of a rough time...those 3 ladies can expect some cookies fit for a queen in the mail this week! See....

Like I said....it isn't even close to being over...

Saturday...maintenance day for me...weigh in, gym, hair, manicure, pedicure. Oil change and car wash. Gymnastics for the kids. Shop for a wedding gift for our friend's wedding on Sunday. Single parent night for me so I need to find something fun for dinner and entertainment for the kids.

Sunday...Wedding...in which I have to get myself and two children ready to attend, find a way to get there as the only way in and out is closed for the weekend all by myself, as the hubs is the best man and is spending the night with the groom on Saturday night. Did I mention I think that is weird? It is his SECOND marriage and he is acting like he doesn't know what to expect...anyhoo...that is the wine talking. Once we get home from the wedding extravaganza while the bride and groom are heading to Hawaii for two weeks, I will be getting ready for our lives to be back to normal next week which means preparing food for the week, doing laundry, and whatever else comes my way.

Cannot believe I am saying this, but I cannot wait for Monday....I miss work. I miss my firends and  my team...but most of all, I miss my normal hectic schedule.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

40 Things I Love about Spring

I love Spring!!. It makes me happy, puts me in a good mood... next to Fall, it is my favorite season of the year. I live in Arizona, and besides the abundance of "snow birds" that flock here for the winter, Spring in the desert is the most gorgeous 2-3 months of the year here. To celebrate my love for this season, I put together a little list of the 40 things I love about Spring...
  1. Needing a sweater in the morning and short sleeves in the afternoon
  2. The smell of orange blossoms outside and my Gold Canyon Orange Blossom candle burning inside
  3. The sun
  4. The smell of new grass
  5. St. Patrick's Day
  6. Easter
  7. Spring Break- my first week of vacation each year with the kiddies
  8. Transition wardrobe from winter to summer
  9. Flip flops
  10. Pedicures- in preparation for flip flops and summer
  11. New blooms on my rose bushes
  12. The anticipation of summer (wait for my "40 things I don't love about summer" blog sometime in July)
  13. Because the rest of the country is in "thaw" mode, the turbulence isn't so bad when I travel
  14. Dying Easter Eggs
  15. Making Easter Baskets
  16. Easter Egg Hunt
  17. 40 days of reflection between Ash Wednesday and Easter
  18. T-shirts
  19. Shorts
  20. Baseball Spring Training Games with friends
  21. My car wash lasting more than a week
  22. Reading- Spring kicks off my non-stop reading marathon between now and the end of summer
  23. My wedding anniversary 
  24. Planning summer vacation
  25. Camping
  26. Flowers blooming
  27. Green everywhere! Everything is new, plants and trees are "waking up"...the earth is alive after winter...I LOVE IT!
  28. Memories of my grandmother visiting
  29. Memories of "Park & Swap" when I was a kid - many call it a flea market or swap meet, either way, it was a treat to get to go with my parents!
  30. Outside seating at restaurants
  31. Everyone seems to be in a good mood this time of year
  32. Ireland on St. Patrick's Day...the MOST incredible trip of my life thus far
  33. Scrapbooking
  34. Spring Cleaning...this year it has been about turning our den into a "game room" for the kids
  35. Blonde highlights
  36. Self Tanning lotion on my ghost white legs in order to wear #19
  37. Cool crisp nights
  38. Family meals outside
  39. My body requires less food...I'm kind of like an Eskimo and shed my fat coat this time of year
  40. Memories of my mother....she loved this time of year too.
Happy Spring everyone! I hope you share my enthusiasm for the beauty of this season....

Monday, March 8, 2010

13 years ago today....

this girl married a boy....not just any boy. THE boy. Now, I didn't know that at the time, it took quite a few years to come to the realization that this boy was THE boy,  who is now the MAN who turned this girl into the WOMAN she is today. Well, with some help from Mother Nature....

I'm not gonna lie, our marriage isn't perfect. I don't want a perfect marriage, because then I would be full of crap and totally medicated to deal with the pressure...no... Our marriage is happy and healthy. We have had many ups and downs in 13 years and almost didn't make it on a couple of occassions. Which means our marriage is NORMAL...

Marriage is hard for a reason. It makes you see who you are through another person's eyes. Which isn't always pretty...And I have long been told how perfect my husband is...by family, friends, and strangers. It used to piss me off and still does on occassion. But honestly, I have grown to understand what they all see... and let me tell you ladies, when you meet a man who can put up with unpredictable mood swings, "secret" credit card debt, 4 pregnancies, two children, 35 extra pounds, your crazy family (all 30 of them!), who does laundry, cooks, cleans, and is an incredible dad, who still finds you sexy no matter what you look like, not only should you marry him, you should thank God for such incredible luck.

So, in case you didn't already know, today is my wedding anniversary. And do you know what I did to show my husband how much I love and appreciate him? I was a total bitch this morning...for NO good reason, other than Monday mornings suck in our house!...believe me, I know how awful that is!!! I just went to that dark place before I could help myself. Of course I apologized immediately a couple hours later, but still felt awful all day. Because he loves me and knows that I have been having a rough time lately, he totally let me off the hook...AND brought me these:
Yes...I am thanking GOD and my lucky stars! Happy Anniversary baby. I LOVE YOU! and THANK you for loving me all of these years! I have your "present" for you later... wink wink...

Stroke Talk....

Have you ever had those days where no matter what you say, people don't hear it the way you meant it, or even hear it at all? Have those spouses or close friends who get this brand new exciting advice or hear about the latest trend from someone else, well after you have told them?

My client calls this syndrome "Stroke" talk.

She told me a story of a close friend of hers who had a stroke, was conscious, but could not speak. Of course, she did not know she couldn't speak as the result of the stroke until afterwards. But during the examination was screaming at the top of her lungs the answers to all of the nurses questions. She became very frustrated when the nurse ignored her, or rolled her eyes at what she thought were very reasonable respsonses. She later found out that all that was coming out of her mouth were mumbles and slobber...

Yeah, that is how I feel today.....

Saturday, March 6, 2010

F-Me and a bag of sugar....

I weighed in this morning and guess what? I gained! I effing gained 2.2 lbs! I am so pissed at myself right now! Over the course of my three week "vacation" from my diet, exercise, and health goals, I have gained back 5 pounds! That is the equivelant of a bag of sugar, 5 boxes of butter, one hand weight, my favorite boots, a watermelon, and too many more things to mention. I have no one else to blame but myself and on the bright side, it could be worse...I could have gained back all 8 pounds I have lost this year. But I didn't...and I'm pretty sure my 2.2lb weight gain this week was the result of too much wine and salt and not enough water and excercise while traveling this week.
SO...I have two choices, be all about the excuses and wallow in self pity or put on my big girl pants, suck it up and in, and move on! Today, I choose....VODKA...nah...just kidding...Thought I would throw in a line from one of my fave movies...Can you name it? Okay, besides the Queen, I bet nobody guessed it right away...Bridgette Jones Diary.

I digress...could be because I have the attention span of a gnat these days...could be that my head is up my backside today, who knows!

What I do know is that I am going to stop being pissed at myself and start fresh. I have 14 pounds to go until my first goal of 10%. That is totally doable by the end of April... Next week, there WILL be a lower number on the scale!

Thanks for listening to me vent...I am good. I am great...and now, about that vodka....hmmmmmm.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Weigh in "eve"....

For those of you who come to my blog to track my progress...you know that timeline with the cute girl running over there ===>...hasn't moved in a few weeks. well, it has moved, but in the wrong direction! I have been incredibly busy the last three weeks...okay the ENTIRE month of February was shot for me. BUT, I weighed in EVERY week. And I have gained a total of 2 of my 8 pounds back. :(

Here is my confession...I haven't been to the gym in over two weeks, and cannot remember the last time I logged into WWonline to track my points. I have fallen into that "hole" in the sidewalk. Hell, I walked right up to it and JUMPED in! I am pissed at myself, but now I need to dig myself out and get over it!

So here is the deal peeps...I only have 300 something days left to meet my goal and I need to kick into serious gear. I want to be at my 10% goal by the end of April. That is 14 more pounds in 8 weeks.

I need to get back to my meetings. They keep me focused and motivated. So, while I have to weigh in at a center tomorrow, I will be back to my at work meetings on Thursday.

I will post my results, good, bad, ugly, whatever...tomorrow. Pray for me!

AND if I meet my 10% goal by April 30th, I'm going to buy these gorgeous shoes to show off my "I don't need to wear tights anymore" legs for Spring!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Turbulence Induced Turrets...

I love to travel but HATE to fly! This is actually funny considering I worked for an airline during college and traveled everywhere for free on a weekly basis. I don’t hate the entire experience…I can take off and land all day long…I can cram all of the shit I find necessary to carry on a plane with me under the seat in front me…I can handle the bad breath, “silent but deadly” farts, screaming, gum chewing, loud talking, and bad conversation of the people sitting next to me. Hell I can even handle paying $7 for a cocktail if and when the need arises…what I CANNOT handle is the “OMFG this plane is going to fall out of the sky” turbulence.


Call me a chicken, a baby, a ridiculous idiot…whatever you like. But I am telling you people, this shit is serious and I have recently been diagnosed with Turbulence Induced Turrets or TIT as my not so funny friend likes to call it.

I was on my way to a super fun conference in Baltimore MD this week. A week in the middle of another one of the worst winter storms this country has seen in quite some time…and lucky me, I get to fly across the ENTIRE country to get to my destination. Yes, I know…you are jealous.

Anyhoo…the trip started out great. Boarding Zone 2 check….exit row window seat with no seat in front of me, check…iPod playlist for my trip (yes I create a new playlist for every trip…that is another blog), check. Bottle of water and Gone with the Wind tucked into the seat back WAY in front of me, check…decent neighbors who have no interest in learning about me, where I come from, what I do for a living, or where I get my pretty blue eyes from, check!

THEN….We are over someplace in the middle of the country, 2 hours from landing…I am minding my own business reading my book, drinking my diet coke, when seriously, the plan drops out from under me…what I mean is my ass actually lifted off the chair. I immediately throw my hands up to grab the roof of the plane and literally blurt the words “Oh Holy Shit”. The guy next to me grabs my soda can before I dump it all over him, and the guy on the aisle seat turns on my air and tells me to breathe. Sweet guys...and I'm quite sure I have never been so embarrassed in front of complete strangers so willing to help a crazy chick with a potty mouth.

Fast forward 4 hours to dinner and two glasses of wine when my $12 million dollar client who knows about my “love” of flying asks how my flight in was…before I can help myself, the story comes tumbling out of my mouth (I also have a serious case of verbal diahrea). Of course by now I can laugh about it...and here is the funny part…they are the one’s who diagnosed me with TIT…

Could it be any worse? Oh yea, did I mention I get to travel TWO more times this month?

Dear Baby Jesus, please help me and forgive me now and in the future for screaming out your name mixed with several profanities when that "OMFG we are going to fall out of the sky" turbulence hits ok?

Monday, February 22, 2010

Where does the time go?

So today me and my team had to present our account plan for the upcoming year to our executive board. At the end of our presentation, my boss stands up and announces to the team that he would like to celebrate me...or rather my 15 year anniversary with my company. I actually had no idea he was going to do this or that I had reached 15 years with my current employer! Holy cow...where in the hell does the time go? I started with this company in 1992 and through several mergers  and a couple leaves to explore other career options, have apparently worked there for 15 of the last 18 years...I was a baby back then.

Here is what has happened to me since 1992
  • met my still #1 BFF of 18 years at said company
  • met my husband
  • got married
  • bought our first house
  • graduated from college
  • gave birth to my son
  • met #2 and #3 BFF at said company
  • learned that happy hour is actually plural and never ends in just an hour...LOL!
  • sold our first house and bought our second house
  • lost both my father-in-law and mother in the same year
  • visited Ireland
  • gave birth to my daughter
  • got asked to come back to said company in the job I always wanted with a big fat pay raise
  • lost my sister in law to breast cancer
  • became a great aunt
Those are just the highlights, but in reading this list, I realize I have grown up at this company. They have been so good to me over the years. I have met so many people that I now consider my close friends and family. So while 15 years doesn't seem so exciting, I am so truly blessed that I have a job, that I love the job I have, and that I work for a company that takes time to recognize the contributions of its employees.

15 years....15 years! (said in the voice of Jeremy Piven in Grosse Point Blank) and if you haven't seen that movie, or know what I am talking about, stop what you are doing and rent it..NOW! Actually, that is a movie worth owning! Oh hell, throw the soundtrack in too. Just a little tip from me...you will love both! and if you don't, you have no taste...sorry, but it's true.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Traveling on a diet sucks!

I travel for my job. Once a month, I hop on a plane and fly to North Carolina to visit my customer. I hate to fly, but I love to travel. However, I must admit, traveling on a diet SUCKS!

I am a rockstar Weight Watchers follower. I prepare my food for the week every Sunday..I make my lunch and snacks for work every morning. I know exactly how many points are in my bag at any given time! I know that as long as I have 6-8 points left by the time I get home, I am good. It is going to be a successful day.

This has been my first trip since I started my journey this year and it was really tough for me. I know how to make good choices when eating out. It is just very difficult to make the right choices for ALL of your meals, EVERY day for 3 days without your measuring cups, spoons, and food scale, you know? . Airports aren't exactly crawling with healthy choices and it would be rude to ask my customer if it would be okay to just eat Subway for dinner...wouldn't it?

In the end,  I did not do that great this week. But I am back on the horse, wagon, whatever you want to call it. I have my next trip in two weeks and I have some time to do a little more research and prepare myself a little better the next time around.

If you have any helpful hints to share with me, I am all ears!

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Valentine's Day

I love Valentine's Day. It has always been one of my favorite holidays. I don't know why, but something about this day makes me smile. I think it all started back in 2nd grade when we got to make mailboxes by sticking construction paper hearts to empty shoeboxes. The purpose of these mailboxes was of course to hold the hundreds of Valentine cards we were going to receive during our Valentine's Day party!

You know what I am talking about! You would come home with a decorated lunch bag filled with cards and candy. You would read EVERY card to see if the cute little boy with dark hair and sparkling blue eyes made the fatal mistake of signing his name to card with a heart on it! boy oh boy...jimmy what's his name loves me....ahhhh...the memories!

Or maybe it started with my dad. My beautiful dad. Every year that I can remember until the year I moved in with my husband, he would buy us a heart shaped box of candy from Sees. I don't remember if the candy even tasted good, all I know is I LOVED waking up and seeing that box on the table in the morning.  My dad set the bar a little too high for the future men in my life... and in turn, every guy I have ever dated on Valentine's Day has had serious pressure put upon them. Unbeknownst to them, their actions on this day would make or break them in our relationship. Good thing for me, and them, my expectations only required a card with my name on it and some sappy sentiment telling me that I am important. That's it...that's all...I don't require ridiculously expensive flowers, or candy, though both are very nice. I just want to know that the man in my life at the time loved me or at least cared enough about me to purchase a card and surprise me with it on Valentine's Day... The card is the best part! The flowers die and the candy makes me fat.

My poor husband....I know he dreads this time of year. And I want to apologize to him for all the years of unrealistic expectations and pressure (though I hope the new Sports Illustrated Swim Suit edition I gave him helps). And I want to thank him for hitting it out of the park this year!! Flowers, candy, a teddy bear, and jewelry....Man oh man...Ian what's his name loves me...and he is going to get some later!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

OMG...I'm an Addict!

I recently read an article that said you are an "addictive" personality if you can easily name 5 things you cannot live without. Holy crap people, I am an addict! And no, I'm not talking about drugs or even alcohol.. but I am definitely an addict...an addictive personality...I am crazy about it sometimes. I rattled off way more than 5 things in the blink of an eye. I was sure that everyone sitting around me in the doctor's office could see me blushing and sinking lower in my chair. I was embarrassed by my own thoughts. Could it be? Am I this person described in the outdated "popular women's magazine" in the waiting room of a doctor's office? Should I be ashamed? Then I thought hell no! I am who I am, and the things I am addicted to are awesome! I'm not abnormal...and you know what, I'm not even going to apologize. Nope...not even close. Because once you read the list of things I am addicted to, you will probably have to agree that you are ALSO an addict!
here goes.. 10 things I am addicted to and pretty damn sure I cannot live without:

1. My iPhone- I cannot put it down. Anyone I talk to on a regular basis will tell you my service sucks ass,    but I don't care. I LOVE that phone. EVERYTHING is at my fingertips. It makes me happy just holding it.
2. Shoes- I don't care who you are. If you are a woman, you own at least 5 pairs of black shoes, and totally know why! My husband doesn't get this...never has, never will...and you know what? I don't care.. I love my pumps, stilettos, flip flops, peep toe pumps, and sexy strappy sandals...oh and my tall boots too!
3. iTunes/iPod- since receiving my favorite gift by my very thoughtful husband 3 years ago, I have spent countless hours and $$ on iTunes. I love my iPod. It is the one thing I cannot leave home without.  And when I do, it is like a missing child to me. Thank you mr. Apple for inventing it! I love you forever and ever amen.
4. Diet Coke- While this habit has certainly become much smaller, I am still addicted to Diet Coke. I used to drink up to 6 a day! But now that I am on a quest to be healthy, that is down to 1 a day. And it has to be Diet Coke. the ONLY time I will drink Diet Pepsi is at a restaurant with less than stellar taste in fountain drinks and even then I have to drink it with lemon. Diet Coke...you rock my world!
5. Make Up- in my family I am known as the "make-up whore" and it is meant as a compliment. I own more eye shadows and lipsticks than Tammy Fay Baker, I just don't wear them all at once, and I definitely blend...i love make up. It makes me feel pretty and I don't like to wear the same neutral colors every day.
6. Body Shop Mango Body Butter and Scrub- cannot live without either. They make my skin all glowy and soft. I slather them on everyday in the shower and out! and they smell yummy!
7. Soma Intimates Lingerie- I love the way they make me look and feel and they come in the most beautiful colors. I have thrown out all of my other bras and panties from Victoria's Secret...she is a hag that charges too much for her secrets that fall apart! Fredericks...I still love you too! every woman needs to feel sexy and this place delivers!
8. Baking- I love baking cakes, cookies, fudge, etc...I love making goody bags every holiday for my closest friends and family. I spend a ridiculous amount of money to make both my daughter and sons birthday cakes , but it so much fun and yes, the oohs aahs and  compliments are addicting!
9. TiVo- this little invention is a gift from God! I love TV. It is my way to unwind and chill. TiVo/DVR  has allowed me to relax knowing that all of my favorite shows will be there when I am ready to watch them WiTHOUT commercials. Yes, I LOVE my TiVo!
10. Dairy Queen Blizzard of the Month- Ice cream is my one downfall. I can go the rest of my life without eating bread, fried food, and potato chips, but I CANNOT go without ice cream and DQ is my favorite. They have recently introduced the blizzard of the month... for those of you who do not know what a blizzard is, it is a delicious dessert of ice cream whipped together with candy, cookies, etc. It is ridiculously good and makes you crave them daily!
11. honorary mention- Facebook- I had to add this one. I used to spend hours reading status', taking quizzes, tending a fake farm, looking at photos. It was a definite addiction. It is a great way to keep in touch with people and I LOVED it. It just took a bad turn for me recently and I realized I just didn't need to worry about what everyone was up to so often. It was hard to deactivate my account and I do miss it, but I am two weeks "sober" and have survived not knowing what my friends and long distance acquaintances are up to minute by minute. And you know what the funny thing is? Out of the almost 300 "friends" I had, only a fraction of them have even noticed my absence.

I am an addict...helloooo.....would I need to lose 40 pounds if I wasn't? Duh!

Oh and "popular women's magazine", you can kiss my iPhone carrying, iPod playing, sexy shoe wearing, Diet Coke drinking, make up wearing, sexy lingerie loving, ADDICTED ass! Smmmoooooch!