Thursday, January 27, 2011

Getting in Touch with your Inner Bitch

So my BFF bought me one of those "page a day" calendars. A GREAT one at that! It is titled appropriately for me...Getting in Touch with your Inner Bitch. This little gem has me looking forward to coming into the office every day to see what the daily advice is. Thought I would share a couple of my favorites with you!

Enjoy!

1. Taking Care of Business, Inner Bitch Style: Create a file where you can record your accomplishments this year. Name it "Yeah, I Rock!"
2. An Inner Bitch Relationship Tip: Remember that Prince Charming is a fairy tale creation. This does not mean you have to settle for a man who does not know you are Queen!
3. "What am I thinking?" beats "What was I thinking?" any day of the week!
4. Today is : "Make Plans with our Best Friends Day." Your Inner Bitch wants you to do it now, while your new calendar is relatively clear
5. "A lot of people are afraid to say what they want. That's why they dont' get what they want" -Madonna
6. This weekend, if the choice is doing laundry or having some fun, your Inner Bitch wants you to choose wisely- the laundry can wait.
7. Your Inner Bitch wants you to make time for beauty today- listen to a favorite song, read a poem you love, buy a single blossom, because you deserve it!
8. An Inner Bitch Romance Tip: "Never run after a bus or a man- there will always be another one."
9. On today in history, Amelia Earhart was the first person to fly across the Atlantic, and that bitch didn't even have GPS.!

Like I said, I love this calendar....!

Yikes....looking at that countdown over there and getting excited that my b-day is only 3 days away!!!!!

Reward update:....so I scrapped the shoes and purchased this amazing bag!!!! I love it so much I want to use it as my pillow every night. I feel amazing just carrying it around! Yes, it was the most ridiculously expensive thing I have ever purchased and am ashamed at all the things I could have done with the money instead. But when I think of the journey I have been on this last year, losing 30 pounds, a parent, my mind...I realized for the very first time in my life, I actually earned every beautiful piece of that bag! and I paid cash for it!

Woo hoo!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

It is what it is..

Do you have a phrase that just bugs the crap out of you? My BFF hates the over use of LOL, LMAO, and any other term that hides the way people are actually feeling. I can see her point. Generally, there aren't many things that people say that bother me...until now...

The term "it is what it is" is not a phrase of acceptance, rather one of defeat. I am guilty of using this term myself. I use it when I am weak and have nothing better to say about the current situation. War: it is what it is. Death: it is what it is. Money: it is what it is. Love it is what it is...you get the point.

I'm not sure why this term has all of a sudden started to rub me the wrong way. Perhaps because my expectations of people have changed lately. Maybe I'm ultra sensitive lately, or maybe I just can't stand when I ask the question Why?, to save me from the true answer to the question, somebody throws out the term..it is what it is..

Well, what it is SUCKS! It means there is nothing you can do about it, so accept it and move on. But what if there is something I can do about it? huh? What if there is something I WANT to do about it?

I will no longer accept the fact that it is what it is should mean something. I'm going to at least try to change things that are in my control and let go of the things that aren't....kind of like eating the ice cream in my freezer...totally out of my control to ignore it... and that is what it is! LOL! LMAO! ROFL! smootch Queen... :)

Thoughts to ponder today...

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Reflection of a decade...

HELLOOOO!!! Yes, it has been 5 months since I have last updated this blog. It has been a crazy few months to say the least. So many wonderful and very sad things have happened to me since September.

I lost 30 pounds, watched my first niece get married to an amazing man and start her life as a married woman, received incredible recognition for the last 2 years of hard work and success at my job, discussed the possibility of separation from my husband and lost my dad to cancer.....lost my dad, it makes me cry just to see the words. No matter what people say, there is NOTHING to prepare a person to lose both parents from their life. I am heartbroken, cry when no one is looking...a lot..., and spend so much time reflecting on the good times we had with them. My parents had a hard life. I often wonder if much of it was self-induced or just from absolute exhaustion, they gave up hoping for a better life.

I started this blog last year to give me a place to let out the crazy...my mind NEVER shuts off. I even sigh in my sleep because I am constantly thinking...this blog was to be a place for me to get it all out! So, I'm back. I need a place to let go of the crazy steel trap called my mind. Those people who know me well, know that I can recall every single detail, word, song, smell, etc.. Of past events. My mind is FULL of absolutely useless information. I can't remember what I ate for breakfast two hours ago, but I can tell you what I wore on the first day of school every year from Kindergarten to 12th grade. Its nuts! So, it's time for me to get back to letting it all out...well, I will try to use my filter, but there are no guarantees. This next year starts a whole new decade of my life. I'm looking forward to changing things up. Doing things I have never done before and being honest with myself first and foremost. I am going to focus on the positive things and people in my life and let the exhausting crap and people go...it's a new decade baby! I'm looking forward to my 40s but before I let my 30's go, it's time for some reflection on what has been my favorite decade of my life so far.

In my 30's.....

1. I grew up
2. I have grown to embrace my strong personality instead of apologizing for it
3. I gave birth to my the little girl who put all the sparkle back into my life
4. My circle of friends, while smaller, will be my friends for life
5. My career skyrocketed, not because of luck, but because I worked my ass off!
6. I gained financial stability and independence
7. I got a tattoo AND a belly button ring...WHAT was I thinking?!
8. I have the body I always wanted in my 20's
9. I became close to my sisters and brothers and am thankful for them every day!
10. I formed a beautiful relationship with my mother and grew to understand so much from her
11. I lost my mother when I was 35
12. I traveled to Ireland
13. I read hundreds of books!
14. I stopped apologizing for stupid shit
15. I learned that it is business not personal
16. I celebrated 13 years of marriage
17. I learned that our annual girls trip to Vegas is a necessity
18. I atteneded my 20th high school reunion and had a GREAT time! It seems everyone else grew up too...
19. I watched in terror and grief as our country was attacked on 9/11/01
20. I took incredible care of my skin so I can go into my 40's knowing I don't look 40!

There are so many more, but my mind is a jumble...
The good news for me, if for nobody else, is that I am back to blogging....thanks for the gentle reminder Queen. I love you and you will forever be my BFF!