This is my mom....wasn't she beautiful? She was 20 years old in this picture...People say I look very much like her in this picture.
My mom passed away almost 6 years ago and I STILL cry every time I see the perfect Mother's Day card. I miss her EVERY day. I need her more today than I did 6 years ago, and I needed her A LOT back then. I want to call her up and hear her voice. I want my daughter to meet her and know who she is instead of me telling her "that's mommy's mommy", in pictures. I want to talk to her about what is going on with my son. I want her to hold me while I cry from a broken heart or feeling like a failure. I want to hear her say, you are stronger than you know it Andrea. Get your head out of your ass and move forward! You won't fail.
While our relationship wasn't always perfect as I was a pain in the ass know it all teenage girl, we became best friends in my early 20's. As I grew up, I began to understand why she pushed me so hard. She saw my potential. She never realized her dreams in life and she was damned if she was going to let me repeat what she viewed as her "failures"...She was hard on me. Harder on me than my sisters. Growing up, I resented her for it...being a mother of a little girl, I THANK her for it. She made me who I am today. Confident, beautiful, kind, funny, sarcastic as hell, successful.....
We can't pick our parents, but I know in my heart I would pick my mom. She was strong, funny, big hearted, and gave me the gift of 6 amazing sisters and 1 brother, taught us all the value of family. I know I wouldn't be who I am without her.
I love you and miss you so very much mom. Thank you for all the blessings you gave me in life!
Happy Mother's Day mom!
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