Music is a critical part of my life. It makes me laugh, it makes me cry, it takes me from today to a moment back in time instantly. Every month I travel, I make a new playlist. It depends on the mood I am in and what I want to be thinking about on my 6 hour flight. This week, I was feeling a little down. Going through a rough time in my life on so many levels and missing my mom so much my heart hurts! Five years has gone by so fast. I feel like she is slipping away from me at a time when I could use her advice more than I ever have. She was the only person I would share my burden with. She would not judge me for my actions, my selfishness or my absolute stupidity. She would tell me, "life is short Andrea, be happy." I would give anything just to hear those words from her right now.
This playlist was AWESOME. It was the perfect mix of fun and meloncholy all at the same time. And it brought me back in time and helped me remember her in good times and bad.
1. Missing You (my all time favorite song)- Diana Ross
2. Runaway Train- Soul Asylum
3. Don't Let it End- Styx
4. Separate Ways- Journey
5.Only Time Will Tell- Asia
6. Look Away- Chicago
7.Foolish Heart- Steve Perry
8.Lullaby- Dixie Chicks
9. Cold Day in July- Dixie Chicks
10.Love the Way you Lie- Eminem and Rhianna
11. Run Around Sue- Dions
12. Feeling Good- Nina Simone
13. What a Fool Believes- Doobie Brothers
14. Dust in the Wind- Kansas
15. I Go Crazy- Paul Davis
16. Cat's in the Cradle- Harry Chapin
17. If you Leave me Now- Chicago
18.Losing my Religion- REM
19. The Way you Look Tonight- Frank Sinatra
20. Butterfly Kisses-
21. Time for me to Fly- REO Speedwagon
22. How to Save a Life-Fray
23. Beautiful- James Blunt
24. Last Kiss- Pearl Jam
25. The Dance- Garth Brooks
26. Here without You- 3 Doors Down
Many of these songs remind me of times in my life when my mom was there for me the most. Anytime my heart was breaking, or I let her down, or I felt lonely....
Yes, they may be depressing, but they actually lightened my heavy heart and put me in a good place to do what I need to make things better. These songs are about loss...of love, life, or otherwise...but at the end of the day, there is always somebody out there with worse problems than I have. And just when I think I am alone, God puts someone in my path to remind me that not only am I not alone, I am not crazy.
Peace out!
Monday, August 2, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Day One of NaBloPoMo
So I get this email about NaBloPoMo which is the challenge of posting something, anything, every day for the month of August. As if the weekly reminder I haven't updated my blog from my dear friend wasn't enough...I get this, a dare...a double dog dare to post every day....that is 31 days in a ROW! Of course the topic they gave this month was "green"...And I'm all for the environment, I recycle...but that isn't an enticing enough topic for me to blog about.....So I am going to wing it...
I traveled from Arizona to North Carolina today as I do at least once a month every month. Normally I do not travel on Sunday's, but my meeting is on Monday and I had no choice. Here is what I observed in my 6 hour travel adventure:
1. I have been lonely lately...not sure why as I don't have one minute of peace in my everyday life...but a feeling of loniless none the less...I never ever talk to anybody on the plane...and I mean NEVER...It isn't that I am anitsocial, but I am anti-flying...a chicken shit of the airways...anyhoo....I go through my normal ritual of pulling out my iPod and book and put them in my seat as I hoist my bag in the stuffed over head compartment. And low and behold....not only does the Kevin Bacon look alike strike up a converstation with me immediately, I don't have my normal "oh crap, are you going to talk my ear off the entire flight?" feeling! We talk for a good 75% of the flight! I don't read, I don't work, I don't listen to music, I don't even notice the turbulence... I have one of the funnest conversations I have had in a while! Thank you Green Bay Packer fan from Charolette by way of Salt Lake City! You were a gift to me today!
2. I am hoping to actually SEE the airport in Charolette NC. I hear it is beautiful but I wouldn't know as my less than favorite airline makes it so I have to RUN until I puke to make my connection!
3. Some men are still gentlemen.... I'm out of breath, pissed off that I just made my flight, breaking my shoe in the process, and there in seat 1B next to me is the nicest man on the planet. Not only does he find room in the overhead compartment for my bag, he spends the 28 minute flight talking about his wife of 26 years, his kids and marriage and all of the things I have been struggling with lately...it's like God knew I needed you and you were there...so thank YOU commercial real estate romantic from Charolette to Raleigh...
4. If you open your heart, good things DO happen
5. Bloody Mary's on an airplane taste 10 times better than a bar or at home
6. My husband is right, we need to move away from AZ to enjoy the rest of this beautiful country and our marriage, starting with a vacation to Hawaii, or San Fransisco or ANYWHERE!
7. Boys who play college football are hot! Boy from Clemson College in seat 7D reading a book from my favorite author, you can stare at my butt when I am storing my laptop bag under the seat in front of me anytime. LOL! :)
8. Having flashbacks throughout the flight of your husband jumping you on your new couch when you are teasing him about men at work checking you out, isn't a bad thing....
9. The feeling of losing 8 pounds in 4 weeks is encouraging
10. Using a pen and paper to write down all the clutter in your head is empowering
11. Knowing and embracing confidence as a woman is sexy
12. The Marriott in downtown Durham has the best Caprese Salad, grilled salmon and smoked cream corn ever!
13. Asparagus does in fact make your pee smell funny...:)
That's all I can think of for now, the 3 hour time difference is brutal and my thought process is fuzzy...
more tomorrow!
I traveled from Arizona to North Carolina today as I do at least once a month every month. Normally I do not travel on Sunday's, but my meeting is on Monday and I had no choice. Here is what I observed in my 6 hour travel adventure:
1. I have been lonely lately...not sure why as I don't have one minute of peace in my everyday life...but a feeling of loniless none the less...I never ever talk to anybody on the plane...and I mean NEVER...It isn't that I am anitsocial, but I am anti-flying...a chicken shit of the airways...anyhoo....I go through my normal ritual of pulling out my iPod and book and put them in my seat as I hoist my bag in the stuffed over head compartment. And low and behold....not only does the Kevin Bacon look alike strike up a converstation with me immediately, I don't have my normal "oh crap, are you going to talk my ear off the entire flight?" feeling! We talk for a good 75% of the flight! I don't read, I don't work, I don't listen to music, I don't even notice the turbulence... I have one of the funnest conversations I have had in a while! Thank you Green Bay Packer fan from Charolette by way of Salt Lake City! You were a gift to me today!
2. I am hoping to actually SEE the airport in Charolette NC. I hear it is beautiful but I wouldn't know as my less than favorite airline makes it so I have to RUN until I puke to make my connection!
3. Some men are still gentlemen.... I'm out of breath, pissed off that I just made my flight, breaking my shoe in the process, and there in seat 1B next to me is the nicest man on the planet. Not only does he find room in the overhead compartment for my bag, he spends the 28 minute flight talking about his wife of 26 years, his kids and marriage and all of the things I have been struggling with lately...it's like God knew I needed you and you were there...so thank YOU commercial real estate romantic from Charolette to Raleigh...
4. If you open your heart, good things DO happen
5. Bloody Mary's on an airplane taste 10 times better than a bar or at home
6. My husband is right, we need to move away from AZ to enjoy the rest of this beautiful country and our marriage, starting with a vacation to Hawaii, or San Fransisco or ANYWHERE!
7. Boys who play college football are hot! Boy from Clemson College in seat 7D reading a book from my favorite author, you can stare at my butt when I am storing my laptop bag under the seat in front of me anytime. LOL! :)
8. Having flashbacks throughout the flight of your husband jumping you on your new couch when you are teasing him about men at work checking you out, isn't a bad thing....
9. The feeling of losing 8 pounds in 4 weeks is encouraging
10. Using a pen and paper to write down all the clutter in your head is empowering
11. Knowing and embracing confidence as a woman is sexy
12. The Marriott in downtown Durham has the best Caprese Salad, grilled salmon and smoked cream corn ever!
13. Asparagus does in fact make your pee smell funny...:)
That's all I can think of for now, the 3 hour time difference is brutal and my thought process is fuzzy...
more tomorrow!
Friday, July 2, 2010
Back on the scale again...
On the scale again(queue Willi Nelson "on the road again") ...just hate to get on the scale again....I've spent 3 months getting fatter by the day...oh I hate to get on the scale again... :) I'm a laugh riot...just crack me myself and I up on a daily basis....
Well peeps I did it and I allowed myself exactly 8 hours to be really pissed off! I am back on Weight Watchers which has this annoying policy that you must weigh in...so I did...and not only did I gain my 12 pounds back, I added a few for good measure. Fuck and me! So...I'm not mad anymore, I'm focused. My thyroid is back in check and I am back to getting serious about meeting my goal!
I have updated my counters over there ====> and let me tell you, they WILL NEVER go up again. Today is the first day of the rest of my life right? I am in control. Nobody can force me to not exercise or eat badly. That's on me! So...here I go again...
Stay tuned...it's time to get smoking hot again!
On a side note...I would like to thank a couple of girls for posting pictures on Facebook that have motivated me to get back on the horse...Hogg and Kell, you two girls look INCREDIBLE! Thank you. :)
Well peeps I did it and I allowed myself exactly 8 hours to be really pissed off! I am back on Weight Watchers which has this annoying policy that you must weigh in...so I did...and not only did I gain my 12 pounds back, I added a few for good measure. Fuck and me! So...I'm not mad anymore, I'm focused. My thyroid is back in check and I am back to getting serious about meeting my goal!
I have updated my counters over there ====> and let me tell you, they WILL NEVER go up again. Today is the first day of the rest of my life right? I am in control. Nobody can force me to not exercise or eat badly. That's on me! So...here I go again...
Stay tuned...it's time to get smoking hot again!
On a side note...I would like to thank a couple of girls for posting pictures on Facebook that have motivated me to get back on the horse...Hogg and Kell, you two girls look INCREDIBLE! Thank you. :)
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