dislcaimer: this post may sound like the rantings of a fat ugly girl, jealous of those hot, crack whore skinny, blonde girls who dance on the bar at The Library, but if you know me, I am neither fat, nor ugly , not jealous, and it isn't ranting...I find those girls hot too...No this post is about my issues with my body image and is by no means meant to judge what others find attractive. Like me, everyone is allowed their opinion, and just because it is different than mine, I am okay with that...mmmmkay?
I was watching the news recently and there was actually a story about this dating service kicking members out for get this....wait for it...
Gaining weight.
Okay, before you say anything, I am all for having age, image, sexual preference rules on dating websites...I mean if I were single and using a dating service, I would want to make sure I was with a service that encouraged members of my similar "interests" to participate. I get that...it isn't that they have rules about weight that is bothering me either...no...the thing that has been bothering me since I watched the story is the woman, who called 3 on Your Side, or whatever could not have weighed more than a buck 25. She was very attractive, had a nice body, all of her teeth, was articulate, a catch for any single man. She goes on a date, the date tells the service the woman was fat, and bam, she is out of the club. WTF?
I sat there in an amused state that this is what is actually considered newsworthy these days...but the more I thought about it, the more it bothered me....asking the question, what is body image and who decides what is "perfect". And should it matter if you are healthy and are happy with the way you look??
For most sane people, the answer is a no brainer...but for me, the answer isn't as easy. And to be successful in my personal weight and health goals, I need to answer that very question.
I have never been "skinny" but I am by no means fat, by MY definition, and my decision to lose 40 pounds has more to do with health reasons than vanity. BUT, at the same time, I want to look good as a reward for all of my hard work, who wouldn't?
My husband and many of my close friends will tell you, and me, that I care too much what other people think of me. I base how I FEEL about myself on opinions that really don't mean crap. And they (you) are all right! I care way too much and have let people make me crazy chasing this image, that is a.) Unrealistic and b.) Unhealthy.
So here's the deal, and the answer to my question....I know I look good just the way I am right now. People love me for who I am not what I look like. Even better, the proof has been there for the last 16 years of my life. Through 2 pregnancies, 2 miscarriages, 33 extra pounds since marriage...plastic surgery, and every diet I have tried and given up on...the man who has told me time and again, there is no one better than me when I feel good about myself...he is my husband and he finds me as sexy today as he did when we first met. He still flirts with me, sends me racy text messages, and tells me when I look great...and he NEVER let's me catch him checking out hot women unless I bring them to his attention...I love him for respecting me like that...I may be doing this for me and only me, but he will benefit from it too...wink wink...
Thank you to my friends and incredible family for helping me pull my head out of my butt...I have been listening to you for years, but now I finally HEAR you! And I am telling you all, the insanity stops now! Hold me to it! I will no longer allow people in my life to make me feel < than. What you see is what you get, and if it doesn’t “fit” your idea of “perfect”, that is you’re too bad. I will be one less amazing person in your life!
PS...for those of you who are dying to know the name of the dating service...here is the link www.beautifulpeople.com
i'm out....
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
It's THAT Time of Year Again....Girl Scout Cookies..God help me!
Just when I was happy going along my merry way, going to the gym, losing weight, feeling GREAT, I get hit over the head with a FB post reminding me it is time to order Girl Scout Cookies!!! Holy shit, is it really THAT time of year AGAIN? . Now don't get me wrong, I love the Girl Scouts, love their calendars, love their cookies, I was a Girl Scout, I cannot wait for my daughter to be a Girl Scout. But, MUST they tempt me EVERY spring with their diet wrecking, fat ass creating, artery clogging, crack like cookies? Which by the way will now cost $4 a box?
Remember when GS cookies used to only be available through an order form and cost $2.50 a box? If you missed it, oh well, you had to watch with saliva dripping out of your mouth while your co-workers received their cookies and wait for another year to get your chance. Those cookies, that not only tempt me to buy them in the break room at work, by neighborhood girls, and any cub scout in my sons pack that has a sister in GS, but now tempt EVERY time I walk into a grocery store, Target, Wal-Mart, etc for three to four weeks! Don't even get me started on the marketing genius who came up with that concept!
It isn't the fact that it is THAT time of year that has me in a tizzy, it is that I am going to have to dig deep inside of my core to muster the herculean strength it is going to take me to resist them this year! You don't understand my friends...well my husband does...but I used to buy at least $100 in cookies over the course of their campaign. I would order from friends, family, co-workers. And would top off my purchases giving into those cute girls in pig tails dressed in green soliciting me in front of establishments I HAD to visit and buy more! I mean, what if I ran out? Was I going to have to wait an ENTIRE year to get them again? My Thin Mints, Tagalongs, Lemon Chalet's? Eff no! I was justified to stock up for 12 months! And the price didn't deter me. I justified the overinflated cost of these cookies because they were GIRL SCOUT COOKIES!
All of those boxes....all of the freezer and cupboard space, all of that FAT. Jesus give me the strength.
To calm me down this afternoon, I did some WW friendly research. For any of you WW girls who have the same affinity for these cookies as I do. I stuck to my favorites, but you can get the nutritional content on http://www.girlscoutcookies.org/ or www.girlscoutcookies.org/nutrition_info_2009_2010.asp
So listen up you tiny and cute green little cookie selling monsters, this year, please don't be offended if I pass right on by the order form in the break room, don't answer my door when you ring my bell, avoid any Cub Scouting events you will be soliciting at, or walk right on by you like I didn't hear your cute little sales pitch. I still love you. I just love my soon to be healthy heart and skinny ass more.
Smoooch!
Remember when GS cookies used to only be available through an order form and cost $2.50 a box? If you missed it, oh well, you had to watch with saliva dripping out of your mouth while your co-workers received their cookies and wait for another year to get your chance. Those cookies, that not only tempt me to buy them in the break room at work, by neighborhood girls, and any cub scout in my sons pack that has a sister in GS, but now tempt EVERY time I walk into a grocery store, Target, Wal-Mart, etc for three to four weeks! Don't even get me started on the marketing genius who came up with that concept!
It isn't the fact that it is THAT time of year that has me in a tizzy, it is that I am going to have to dig deep inside of my core to muster the herculean strength it is going to take me to resist them this year! You don't understand my friends...well my husband does...but I used to buy at least $100 in cookies over the course of their campaign. I would order from friends, family, co-workers. And would top off my purchases giving into those cute girls in pig tails dressed in green soliciting me in front of establishments I HAD to visit and buy more! I mean, what if I ran out? Was I going to have to wait an ENTIRE year to get them again? My Thin Mints, Tagalongs, Lemon Chalet's? Eff no! I was justified to stock up for 12 months! And the price didn't deter me. I justified the overinflated cost of these cookies because they were GIRL SCOUT COOKIES!
All of those boxes....all of the freezer and cupboard space, all of that FAT. Jesus give me the strength.
To calm me down this afternoon, I did some WW friendly research. For any of you WW girls who have the same affinity for these cookies as I do. I stuck to my favorites, but you can get the nutritional content on http://www.girlscoutcookies.org/ or www.girlscoutcookies.org/nutrition_info_2009_2010.asp
- Thin Mints 4 points for 4 cookies, or 1 point a piece...but who in the hell can only eat ONE thin mint cookie? I could blow two days of points allowance with one sleeve during the movies!
- Lemon Chalet- 4 points for 3 cookies, or 1.3 points a piece
- Tagalongs- 4 points for 2 cookies, or 2 POINTS EACH!
- Samoas- 4 points for 2 cookies
So listen up you tiny and cute green little cookie selling monsters, this year, please don't be offended if I pass right on by the order form in the break room, don't answer my door when you ring my bell, avoid any Cub Scouting events you will be soliciting at, or walk right on by you like I didn't hear your cute little sales pitch. I still love you. I just love my soon to be healthy heart and skinny ass more.
Smoooch!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Weigh In
I am so excited to share the result of my first weigh in....drum roll please.....3.4 pounds down!!!! Woo hoo...you can't see me right now but I am doing cartwheels! And as corny as it sounds, I am very excited about the "bravo" sticker I received at the WW meeting at work today for sharing my story and making the right decision to change my behavior...a gold star if you will. :)
3.4 down, 36.6 to go with 388 days to do it. If I lose 1lb per week from here on out, I will actually be at my goal by October. Just in time to celebrate Halloween in a sexy "little" costume I always wanted to wear, but couldn't get over my ass.
I am motivated, happy, and taking it one day at a time to keep me calm and on track. Another cool thing I have started doing based on a recommendation from a friend and fellow WW member (thanks Hogg), is to actually USE the WW cookbooks in my cupboard to make dinner. My first shot was tonight and guess what?! It didn't taste like cardboard, it didn't leave me starving or craving ice-cream, it wasn't my usual chicken breast rice and broccoli dinner, and most importantly it didn't suck! It tasted great and my husband agrees.
I chose 3 recipes, stopped at the store on my way home...note to self: NEVER go to the Fry's at Ellsworth and Broadway at 5:30 at night, yikes!...anyway, I bought all of the ingredients I needed to make all three recipes, and when I got home, I let my husband pick which one I made tonight! He chose Pork Chops with Herbed Mustard Sauce. I added mashed potatoes and broccoli as sides and viola...the whole dinner had 7 ingredients, including the sides and took a total of 15 minutes to cook! I would calculate the cost at about $15 bucks only because I bought the family pack of pork chops, enough for two meals, and had to buy the mustard, fresh herbs, and half and half. Break it down and that is actually $7.50 per meal. Which serves four people, which is delicious, and time friendly!
As promised in my very first post, I am going to share the recipe, with my helpful tips, for this pretty yummy dinner:
Pork Chops with Herbed Mustard Sauce
4 Points per serving
Prep 3 minutes
Cook 6-10 minutes
4 (4ounces) boneless center-cut loin pork chops (about 1/2 inch thick)
1/4 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
Cooking Spray
3/4 cup fat-free half-and-half
1/4 cup course-ground mustard (such as Grey Poupon Harvest) this ingredient adds a lot of the flavor to this recipe, so I would go with the one they recommend
1 TBS chopped fresh flat-leaf parsley (you couldn't taste this ingredient in the recipe, so I say using dried parsley is fine)
2 TBS chopped fresh thyme (same note as the parsley, dried will be just as good and less expensive if you make this frequently)
1. Sprinkle pork chops with salt and pepper. Heat a large nonstick skillet over medium-high heat. Coat pan with cooking spray. Add pork chops; cook 2 minutes on each side or until browned (actually about 3 minutes on each side). Remove pork chops from pan; cover and keep warm.
2. Add half-and-half and next 3 ingredients to pan, scraping to loosen browned bits. Return pork chops to pan. Cover and simmer 2 minutes or until done (done was about 10 minutes on low). Yield: 4 servings (serving size: 1 pork chop and 2 TBS sauce)
Let me know if you try it! Next recipes will be the two my husband didn’t pick: Lemon Glazed Chicken with Mushrooms and Seared Scallops with Spicy Red Pepper Sauce, which was the one I really wanted…
Now, I have to get to bed. I am getting up at the crack of dawn to take a 5:15 step class.
Next post: Is there a cure for a sore ass and legs? :)
3.4 down, 36.6 to go with 388 days to do it. If I lose 1lb per week from here on out, I will actually be at my goal by October. Just in time to celebrate Halloween in a sexy "little" costume I always wanted to wear, but couldn't get over my ass.
I am motivated, happy, and taking it one day at a time to keep me calm and on track. Another cool thing I have started doing based on a recommendation from a friend and fellow WW member (thanks Hogg), is to actually USE the WW cookbooks in my cupboard to make dinner. My first shot was tonight and guess what?! It didn't taste like cardboard, it didn't leave me starving or craving ice-cream, it wasn't my usual chicken breast rice and broccoli dinner, and most importantly it didn't suck! It tasted great and my husband agrees.
I chose 3 recipes, stopped at the store on my way home...note to self: NEVER go to the Fry's at Ellsworth and Broadway at 5:30 at night, yikes!...anyway, I bought all of the ingredients I needed to make all three recipes, and when I got home, I let my husband pick which one I made tonight! He chose Pork Chops with Herbed Mustard Sauce. I added mashed potatoes and broccoli as sides and viola...the whole dinner had 7 ingredients, including the sides and took a total of 15 minutes to cook! I would calculate the cost at about $15 bucks only because I bought the family pack of pork chops, enough for two meals, and had to buy the mustard, fresh herbs, and half and half. Break it down and that is actually $7.50 per meal. Which serves four people, which is delicious, and time friendly!
As promised in my very first post, I am going to share the recipe, with my helpful tips, for this pretty yummy dinner:
Pork Chops with Herbed Mustard Sauce
4 Points per serving
Prep 3 minutes
Cook 6-10 minutes
4 (4ounces) boneless center-cut loin pork chops (about 1/2 inch thick)
1/4 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
Cooking Spray
3/4 cup fat-free half-and-half
1/4 cup course-ground mustard (such as Grey Poupon Harvest) this ingredient adds a lot of the flavor to this recipe, so I would go with the one they recommend
1 TBS chopped fresh flat-leaf parsley (you couldn't taste this ingredient in the recipe, so I say using dried parsley is fine)
2 TBS chopped fresh thyme (same note as the parsley, dried will be just as good and less expensive if you make this frequently)
1. Sprinkle pork chops with salt and pepper. Heat a large nonstick skillet over medium-high heat. Coat pan with cooking spray. Add pork chops; cook 2 minutes on each side or until browned (actually about 3 minutes on each side). Remove pork chops from pan; cover and keep warm.
2. Add half-and-half and next 3 ingredients to pan, scraping to loosen browned bits. Return pork chops to pan. Cover and simmer 2 minutes or until done (done was about 10 minutes on low). Yield: 4 servings (serving size: 1 pork chop and 2 TBS sauce)
Let me know if you try it! Next recipes will be the two my husband didn’t pick: Lemon Glazed Chicken with Mushrooms and Seared Scallops with Spicy Red Pepper Sauce, which was the one I really wanted…
Now, I have to get to bed. I am getting up at the crack of dawn to take a 5:15 step class.
Next post: Is there a cure for a sore ass and legs? :)
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